just crash, into me..

"I love you" he said.
She took a step back, "what?" she asked confused.
The cold wind sent a chill down her spine. He sensed that she was cold so he took off his jacket and put it around her shoulders.
"I love you, like a lot." He repeated himself, this time looking straight into her eyes with an honest look.
She remained silent and looked away.
What was she supposed to say? I'm sorry I'm too fragile? I'm sorry I don't believe you? I'm sorry but I don't deserve this?
She looked back up at him, he was honest. He had the most loving eyes, that gleamed brighter than any moon.
He moved closer to her, as if reassuring her that he's not going anywhere.
He brushed her cheek and smiled invitingly at her.
Her face was blank. She was fighting every urge in her body to just allow herself to fall in his arms, to allow herself to love him.
But she was too afraid.
She wore her heart on her sleeve way too many times.
She fell in love and fell hard on her face, way too many times.
It was hard for her to trust in love, trust in men.
way too hard..
"Please say something," He whispered.
She breathed out, "Why? Why do you love me?? I never gave you permission to do so!"
He was bumped out.
He held her face and looked right in her eyes, "Well you know what, I can find a million little reasons as to why I love you and you don't have to agree with a single one. You make me laugh, you make me feel strong, I enjoy spending every minute of my life with you. You're different, and I love that about you. You have the soul of an angel, and loving spirit that I've never seen before. You can walk into a room and light it up with that beautiful smile of yours and that amazing sense of humor you have! You just can't see it can you?? You spend so much time trying to protect yourself from getting hurt that you're missing out on so much! I care about YOU! I want to protect you, I want to love you! And I don't care whether thats okay with you or not! I've been in love with you since the day I met you! And you keep on pulling me closer to you, as if you have this magnetic force over me! Let me love you, let me be the one for you. I just need you to crash into me, fall right into my arms, I'll catch you, I swear.."

Her mind told her not too, but her heart won the battle.

All she could ever do, was press her soft cold lips onto his warm lips.
A kiss that showered her with warmth, a kiss that brought her back to life.
He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer to him as he kissed her softly and passionately. Happiness was the only thing his heart could feel, and her heart was glowing. She loved him back, all those years they've been friends, she has been loving him but was too afraid to show it.
He was by her side all along as just a friend, when his heart was aching to be more than that.
And now, she was crashing right into him.
He waited so long for this moment that he'd never imagine he'd get.

He picked her up and wrapped her around him as his kisses became more intense.
"I love you, I loved you all along." She finally confessed.

a roller coaster.

You know the excitement you get when you're standing in line waiting for the long queue to move along so you can finally get on the roller coaster that you've been waiting to get on forever?
And then its finally your turn, and you get on.
Your heart starts beating fast, everything begins to get blurry, all you can think about are the next thrilling 3 minutes of your life. You know the ride is going to be a scary one, yet you also know, that it won't last forever, you know its just for a little while and its going to be over.
Everyone settles in and there's this sound, a sound that tells you that the ride has begun. You now slowly begin to hold on to the handles, even though the train is moving slowly along the tracks.
As the train climbs high, your heartbeat is now the only thing you can hear.
As it reaches the top, you hold your breath and close your eyes, but only the bravest keep their eyes open for the fall.
Your tummy flips as you zoom through the ride, you're screaming out and probably crying as well, depending on how scary the ride is. Yet, your screams are out of excitement and your tears are from the joy.
The palms of your hands are sweaty from how hard you're holding on to the handles, even when you know that if you let go, you won't fall, cause you're held tight behind the bars.
Before you know it, the train glides back to where you started, and the same sound that started the ride, comes back again signaling the end of the ride.
You open your eyes, the safety bars open up and the you suddenly realize the amount of adrenaline you got from getting onto that ride.
You start laughing hysterically because you had the best time of your life.
Maybe some of you would go back on that ride, and maybe some would ride just once.
Maybe some of you liked the ride and maybe some didn't enjoy it as much.
The point is, you all got on, you all experienced the same ride, but you all got different reactions.
You might tell your friends that you had a good time, you might tell them to try it out. On the other hand, you might tell them not to go on that ride, you'll give them your opinion, you'll share your experience.
Life, is like a roller coaster, yet no one really knows how or when it's going to glide back to the end.
You constantly hold your breath, you savor the good times and you just wish you can zoom through the bad times, sometimes there are loops where you go through hard things and it might seem never-ending, yet the funny thing is, its all balanced out.
You get good as much as you get bad.
You get hard as much as you get easy.
You might enjoy some moments and you might just wish that you don't go through some moments again.
The difference between a roller coaster and life, is that you know when to hold your breath, you know when the scary part is coming, you know when its going to end.
In life, you'll never know how the ride is going to be, one second you can be in your lowest moments and the other you're flying sky-high. Most important thing is to enjoy the ride cause what's the point of getting on a boring roller coaster, right?

-bella xoxo

anybody still here?

Hi.
I know I disappointed you all cause I haven't been posting forever.

I'm really sorry, but I've been so busy and overwhelmed and I didn't want to write any post and post it for the sake of just posting.. get it?

I have been working on the story and I have two posts that I'm going to edit and post enshalla..

I'm so sorry again.

love you all,
bella xoxo