She dreams, she hopes, she loves, she has faith. Like fireflies, it glows in her darkest days, the sweet taste of bittersweet memories. Sunshine and Raindrops, a sweet escape of a world only she knows.
She's strong, she's passionate, and she never gives up.
Most importantly, she's loved.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

I hope.

I hope you know that I will never let you go.
I hope you know that no matter how you make me feel, I will always love you.
Its true, you hurt me in ways I could have never imagined, but it doesn't mean a thing to me.
I hope you know that I will never give up on this, no matter how hard it gets.
I hope you know that you bring out the best in me.
I hope you know that you make me smile honestly.
I hope you know, that you mean the world and more to me.
I hope you know that no one gets you like I do.
I hope you know that the more you push me away, the more closer I am to you. 
I hope you know that I will always be there for you.
I will hold your hand, share your silence, and give you all the strength you need.
I hope you know that you can count on me to wipe away your tears, to make you chase away your fears.
I will always be near, distance you'll never have to fear.
I hope you know, that what you put me through made me a lot stronger than I ever was.
I hope you know that I never hated you, not for a second will I ever.
I know my tears will turn into smiles.
I know the pain will turn into happiness.
I know all the time that was wasted apart, will be time spent together soon.
I know in time, it will all get better.
I know deep down you are still the same, and that you never changed.
I know that I love you.
I know that you love me.

I just hope you know that too. 

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Update!

Hello readers!


I know I haven't posted in a really long time, but I've been really really busy, but I promise you I'll post two long posts as soon as I'm done with a few things!


Thank you for reading my story, you are all amazing readers!!


- bella xx 

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Part 13.


       Dalal’s face turned bright red. She didn’t know what to reply back to Faisal, and yet she didn’t want to show him that he completely got to her.
So she replied with,

“3an el3ayara Faisal :p”

Farah nudged Rawan and gave Dalal a cheeky look. “6aa3 wayhch Dalool! Ashkara Faisal ely dazelch message?”
“Olaa olaa Daloool, eshgaylech hatha ely chthy wayhch galab alwaan?” Rawan teased.
“Waay chabaw entaw!” Dalal had a shy expression, “Khalooni mestansa.”
Farah grabbed Dalal’s phone and read the message, “waaaayyy!!! He’s so sweet Dalool!!! Wentay shal rad malat 3alaich!! Brooud mu 6abee3i!!”
Rawan read the message and said, “aahaa Dalool ya3ne entay bet9ereen thegeela weyaa?”
“Yal maleqeen!!” Dalal frowned! “Kaifyy, malkum sh’3l what goes on between me and ….” And Dalal was left speechless.

Out of the blue, Bader shows up, and walks directly to their table.
Rawan and Farah both have their back to Bader and are facing Dalal.
Farah looks at Dalal’s expressionless face, and looks back and see’s Bader.
“Uhm, Rawan?” Dalal whispers.
Rawan hands Dalal back her phone and is too busy slicing her food, “hmm?”
 And suddenly, Rawan felt a hand gripping her shoulder, “Rawaani shlounch?”
Rawan’s face turned a million shades, she knew that voice so well, and she didn’t even have to look back. Rawan shrugged off Bader’s hand and scolded, “Bader, go away.”
But Bader only pulled up the chair next to Dalal, and sat with them.
‘Oh god, ya rab Faisal mayshoofna.’ Dalal thought to herself.

Farah looked at Bader sternly, “Ya a5i efham, elbent matabeek! Lawsama7t goum, latsawe mashakel.”

Bader ignored Farah and looked at Rawan, “9arli esbou3 adiglech laish matrdeen?”
“Went a9lan eshdarak ana ehni?” Rawan gave Bader a dirty look.
“7abebty nesaytay ayam awal? You can’t hide from me, a6al3ech law wayen makentay.”
Rawan looked at Bader in a disgusting way.

Bader, was Rawan’s second boyfriend after Talal. Rawan and Bader dated for a whole year, then they just broke up for a while, when Rawan found out Bader was cheating on her with Farah’s cousin. Then Bader lied and begged for forgiveness and poor naïve Rawan forgave him and went back to him. Then he started demanding that she get physical with him, but she didn’t want to. She caught him cheating on her again, and that’s when she broke it off for good. They broke up in July, and that’s the last she heard of him, until a week ago when he started calling her and texting her.

“Al7een eshtabe?” Rawan said.
“Abeech.” Bader confessed.
“A7laam omeck ardleck mara thanya!” Rawan barked at Bader.
Bader chuckled, “Shofay Rawan, malech ghairy, fehmay, ma7ad yabeech.”
Rawan started choking with tears, but she didn’t allow herself to cry in front of Bader, let alone cry in public.

Dalal turned and looked at Bader, “Shouf Bader, I think Rawan made it clear enha matabeek. Law sama7t, goum and don’t make a scene.”
Dalal’s phone vibrated, it was Faisal calling.
She looked around and saw Faisal giving her a questioning look and pointing at Bader.
Dalal just shook her head and looked back at Bader, “Bader lawsama7t rou7.”
“Mani rayi7 ela wana ma5th Rawan weyay.” Bader said coldly.
Rawan looked at Bader for a few seconds, “I’d rather die, then be with you.”
Bader got up and leaned his face close to Rawan’s “Enshouf..” And he pecked her cheek and walked away.
Rawan stayed still. Her heart was beating so fast, and she felt drained. She felt humiliated and disgusting. ‘Don’t cry Rawan, Don’t cry, don’t cry.. Just breathe.’ she told herself.

Dalal and Farah both looked at Rawan in silence as she breathed out and composed herself again.
Farah reached out and squeezed Rawan’s hand “Are you okay?”
Rawan flinched and pushed Farah’s hand away, “eeh I’m fine, bas khalas sheba3t I want to go home.”
Dalal got the check and paid for the food, “Rawan tara bared weyach elbait.”
Rawan nodded, “wentay Faroo7?”
Farah shook her head, “La ana lazem ard baitna, mali khlig obouy esawle aflam 3ala bona already 6ala3t el9ib7.”
Rawan nodded, “Khalas 3ayal, I’ll go with Dalool.”
Farah went to her car and drove back home, while Rawan and Dalal got in the car.
“Rawan?” Dalal said.
“Hala?” Rawan looked at Dalal.
“Please 3ade you give me a few minutes? I just want to see Faisal.” Dalal confessed.
“Sure 7abebty go, I’ll wait in the car.” Rawan said as she went through her Ipod, looking for songs to play.

Dalal walked to Faisal’s car and checked to see if anyone was looking, to her luck the parking lot was empty. She quickly got in the passenger seat.

“Mino hatha ely kan ga3id weyakum?” Faisal asked immediately.
“Bader.” Dalal said. “Please 5anafahmik, please lat3a9ib.”
Faisal tried to hold his anger, and just looked at Dalal sternly.
“Faisal please walla mala da3i et3a9ib. Bader is Rawan’s ex, oo madre shloun he found out ena Rawan ehny w ya ekalmha.” Dalal said.
“Shako yeg3ad ma3akum??” Faisal’s voice was slowly getting loud.
“Madree Faisal please lat9arikh 3alay! Walla we told him to leave bas kan yet7arash eb Rawan, and now she’s a total mess, kahi ga3da ebsayarti!”
Faisal breathed out, “7achach? Galech shay hal7mar?”
Dalal shook her head, “he was just there to talk to Rawan.”
“Enzain oo hathy refeejtch mat3arif etgoola mayeg3ad weyakum?? Al7een law a7ad shayfech?? Law wa7id men e5wanich shafooch??” Faisal barked.
“Faisal walla she didn’t tell him to come! Faisal they broke up menzeman!! W tawa kan 7ada qaleel eladab w he wanted Rawan back cause she wasn’t answering his calls! Bas we asked him to leave, w after saying a few stuff, he left!”
“Laykoun ashoof hal shay yetkarar mara thanya fahma? 7ata mabe asma3 mench etgoleen ena walla flan wela 3elan ga3ad ma3akum!!” Faisal said.
Dalal nodded and whispered “enshalla,” she looked at her hands and was nervously playing with her jumper.
“Hmm khalas 3ayal, I guess lazem arou7.. Rawan is waiting for me oo I promised I wont take long.” Dalal said nervously.
Faisal reached for Dalal’s hand and held it, “Laa ne6ray, mabeech etro7een wentay murathya 3alay.”
Dalal looked at Faisal, “Faisal I’m fine.”
Faisal shook his head, “No you’re not, sorry 9ara5at 3alaich.. Bas walla magedart amsk a39abii, kent a9lan banzil men elsayara w athba7a youm shefta ga3ad yamech..”
Dalal stayed quiet, “Forgive me Daloola?” Faisal pleaded and kissed Dalal’s hand and fingers.
Dalal pulled her hand away and looked away shyly, “Khalas khalas Faisal, you’re forgiven.”
Faisal smiled; he reached out and tucked Dalal’s bangs behind her ear, “A7bich wayed, and I just want to see you happy.”
Dalal stayed quiet, she liked the feeling of Faisal’s hand brushing against her cheeks.
“Lazem amshi al7een,” Dalal whispered.
“Bas masheba3at mench,” Faisal frowned.
“When you marry me, betmel meny,” Dalal said as she opened the door to leave.
Faisal leaned in and pecked Dalal’s cheek, “Musta7eel..”
Dalal’s felt fireworks as soon as Faisal’s lips were pressed on her cheeks, she didn’t want to go home, she wanted to stay with Faisal, forever. But she had to leave, she had to wait, wait for the day that she would be officially his.

“Before you go, say you love me back?” Faisal begged.
But Dalal only smiled to him and left the car in a hurry.
Faisal smiled and said to himself, ‘Akkh 3alaich ya Dalal, emyanenatni walla.’ Then he waited for Dalal to pull back and drive off, and he followed her back to Rawan’s house, to make sure she got there safely, and of course to get a few more smiles from Dalal every time they stopped at a red light.

Life to Faisal was starting to be perfect again; he was finally getting Dalal, finally feeling happy again. He didn’t know that Dalal meant so much to him. He didn’t know that until he lost her for a whole year, and now that she’s back with him, he’s going to do everything in his power to never lose her again.

To be continued….



Sunday, April 1, 2012

Part 12.

      “Mar’9ait 3ala shino youba?” Dalal tried to keep a calm face.
“Mar’9ait ena 3azeez ya5th ghairech, wela entay ta5then ghaira” he replied.
Dalal kept quiet and looked at her mother who was hiding a grin.
“Bas ba3dain,” her father continued, “3amech Nawaf kalamny, w el9ara7a elkalam ely gala qana3ni. E7na 9a7 kena nabe enzawjeckom ba3ath, bas 3azeez yabe bent thanya. W ana fakart feeha, w el9ara7a Martha benty et3eesh ma3a wa7id mayabeeha. Mabe benty matkoon mestansa, wela nag9ha shay.” He looked straight at Dalal and smiled, “Youba ana bas abeech testansain w etkoneen sa3eeda eb 7ayatech..”
Dalal couldn’t help but tear up and cry, she hugged her dad so hard and kissed his cheeks. “Baba walla a7bick, w matadre eshkther wanastnii.. La2na youba 3azeez belnesba ley okho. La akthar wala aqal..”
Her dad smiled, “Adree 7abebty, kalamt omech w eqna3atny.”
Dalal smiled to her mother, “allah ya7feth’kum ley ya raab w e6awel eb a3markum!”
“Oo ya7fe’9ech lena 7abebty,” her dad kissed her forehead. “Bas 3ad al7een mu ma3nata bartha eb ayi wa7id eyi yetqadamlech, laa 6ab3an mu eb halsohoola ba3a6eech ayi wa7id.”
Dalal and her mother both laughed, “Walla ya Abullateef la yane9eb bentna wala shay bereda” her mother said.
“Allah esahel enshalla,” her dad said, “yala 7abebty tewakelay 3ala allah mawthoo3i khala9 weyach”
Dalal smiled and got up, “youma latan6rooni 3al ghada, etha khalsna yemkn ard bait Rawan.”
Her mother nodded, “kalmeeni lay 3arftay wayen betro7een.”
Dalal nodded and left the house.
Happiness was filling her heart now that she can finally marry any man she wanted, and she knew exactly who she wanted.

“I’m going to P&T with rawan and farah, I got really good news men ahali.. I don’t want to pressure you, bas esh9ar ma3ack?”

Shortly after, Faisal replied with:

“Haya said she’s going to handle it. What’s the news?”

“Agooleck ba3dain.”

That was Dalal’s reply.


Dalal was the first to arrive at Prime&Toast, she took a table outside and waited for her friends. She ordered coffee, and the usual. Shortly after, her friends joined her.

“Daloool, laish ma yetay elyoum?” Rawan asked as she looked over the menu. The girls usually go to Prime&Toast on a weekly basis, yet they always go over the menu, and end up ordering the same order.
“I wasn’t in the mood for class today,” Dalal said.
“Feech shay?” Farah asked concerned.
Dalal looked at her friends, she trusted them with everything, and they’re like sisters.
“Fee shay lazem agoolkum yaah..” Dalal whispered.
Both Rawan and Farah leaned closer and nodded, “golay?”
“Faisal..” Dalal blurted.
Both girls looked confused, “Haw aren’t you too over?” Rawan asked.
Dalal shook her head. “we were never over. He left but I still loved him with all my heart,”
“And?” Rawan asked eagerly.
“And he still loves me back!” Dalal smiled.
Both girls gasped and demanded that Dalal tell them the full story. Dalal explained to them how she saw Faisal, and what happened between them. She told them what her parents just told her, and they were speechless.
“So ya3ne, you no longer have to marry 3azeez?” Farah asked.
Dalal shook her head, “bas dalool, ya3ne this is all too good to be true?” Rawan said
“Shloun ya3ne?” Dalal asked.
“Ya3ne madree Dalool, faj2a Faisal turns up after a whole year entaw matadroon 3an ba3ath? W faj2a your dad changes his mind? Ya3nee madree, a7s its too good. A7s there is a catch.”
Dalal got a little tense and she gritted her teeth.
“Rawan?? Why can’t you ever just be happy for me? Ya3ne laish ga3da etkharbeen 3alay and bring so much negativity over me?” Dalal blurted.

Rawan was always the girl that got everything, the perfect parents, the perfect lifestyle, and the perfect grades. What ever she wants, she gets. Except when it comes down to relationships. Rawan never had the perfect boyfriend. The two guys that she dated turned out to be liars and they hurt her so much, that she’s not interesting in dating anymore. And since high school, there has always been a little jealousy between Rawan and Dalal when it came to relationships.

“La, Laa , walla I’m not,” Rawan protested, but she couldn’t hide the jealousy in her eyes.
“La Rawan you are, you know eshkther you guys affect me! Look at Farah, magalt it’s too good to be true or the crap you said. Rawan, please ana mageltech hal salfa 3ashan you tell me ena there’s a catch or whatever, I told you this because in a really long time I haven’t felt happy at all, and since the day I saw Faisal, I’m actually smiling for real!”
“Yala 3ad you two, don’t fight!” Farah looked at both Rawan and Dalal. “Rawoon remember entay ebnafsech gaylatle ena Dalal hasn’t been her lately? Tara what she has with Faisal, is really strong, and the year they’ve been apart really really put her down, Rawan, just be happy for her okay? Faisal isn’t like the guys you dated!” Farah exclaimed to Rawan.
Rawan sighed, “Daloola 7abebty walla I’m happy for you, bas aham, you’re like my little sister, w a5af 3alaich. I just don’t want you to get hurt!”
Dalal smiled, “I love you guys so much! And you standing by me means a lot walla! I wont get hurt this time, I’m finally getting what I want!”
Farah smiled, she loved her friends so much, and hated when they argued, “yallaa youba ba3ad cham shahar bensaweelich bachelorette party ba3ad eshtabeen?”
Dalal smiled, “that would be great!! Bas 6ab3an 5alooha surprise mabe a3rf meta”.
“Eeh mu mashalla Farah 5alat feeha surprise? Kaahi galtlech the plan!” Rawan said sarcastically
All three of them laughed as their food arrived. Shortly after, Dalal received a message from Faisal.

“Ana 9afe6 jedam Prime&Toast, etha tabeen shay goleeli.”

Dalal replied back,

“Faisal geltlik don’t come!”

Faisal replied,

“ I couldn’t help it, I had to see your beautiful face.”


To be continued…